It happened in a presentation at New Haven free public library. We 15 people were invited to deliver a series of public speech about China's culture from different aspects such as history,traditions,festivals,families and the latest development. I joined in the first group. The task was assigned a week ago and I should have got enough time to deal with it properly,but unfortunately I didn't,which might be the main reason for my disapointing experience.
Before I was told to join in the first group chiefly talking about family planning policy and the aging society in China,I had formed a plan concerning the relationship between people and animals in families both in the past and at present,a topic I am more intested in,so I was totally at a loss about what to do when I was informed of the topic. Hearing the ideas of my group partners,I thought over and over about what I could possibly continue. Finally,I decided to show some pictures as a continuation and conclusion of what Jason would say about the aging society. If I had started my preparation earlier,I could have done it better. However,it had been arranged that there would be a dinner party on Tuesday,two days before the speech. Worse still,I am not a person who can be devoted to different tasks at the same time.Therefore,when I was hogtied by different trifles before the dinner party,I just couldn't spare enough effort to focus on my pre-work of the speech. So I didn't do much before the dinner party was over.
It was after the class on Monday afternoon that I actually started my work. When I got it started,I was startled to find there were so many things to do including searching for different pictures and organizing a variety of scripts for them,so I could only show a rough draft at Tuesday's rehearsal. If I had done more on Tuesday evening,I could have escaped the disaster. But troubles never come singly. There was a terrible coincidence that night:the internet was unvailable!I couldn't surf on line to find more pictures,so I had to go to bed early. Fortunately,it turned out the next morning that the router was not broken. I decided to continue my job in the afternoon right after the class. I stayed up very late on Wednesday night searching for pictures,editing the words and making revisions. On Thursday morning,being afraid that there might be a need for another revision,I woke up very early and checked all the pictures and scripts again. After finishing all the work,I took a deep breath,but anxiety kept haunting in my mind frequently. In the afternoon,my roomate Cherry helped me do the work of picture editting on PPT as I was not good at it;Jennifer and Lyli came along to my apartment,and I rehearsed again with the revised contents based. The time was approaching when I made the final revision based on their advice. I tried my best to remember the words,but I found myself frequently distracted by the feeling of tiredness,anxiety and pressure. You could imagine how terrible I did when it was my turn. I pretended to be calm at first,but when it came to something that I didn't get quite familiar with,I couldn't resist the stressful and dizzy feelings. My mouth was so parched and my throat so scorched that I felt myself unable to say a word at times!It was a horrible and suffering feeling I have never had before,but it occurred exactly at the moment when I was making the speech. After I finished,I even felt I was in a fever,a rather abnormal phenomenon I myself have not even thought to occur in my life. I almost ruined our teamwork even though the other four did quite well.
Afterwards,I thought a lot about it. My unsual feeling of tension might be caused by the immature preparation and a lack of confidence. I could have avoided the occurrence of such a bad feeling if I had been more ready for the speech. As is known to us,there won't be any satisfactory outcome without sufficient preparation. My disastrous experience in the presentation is absolutely a proof for this saying.